For those..

who read my blog..sometimes..everytime..double readers..maybe triple readers.. i dont know.. but lately i have been thinking..this time no more bullshit like before.. i really did search deep inside myself..what do I want to do with my life?

after a long time..i have made up my mind..so for those who wants to know..just feel free to ask me when u talk to me at msn..and if i am not one of your contacts in your list..leave your email as a comment and i will email it to you..

everyone may laugh at me..they may try to get me to do something else..but i have made my decision.. and i won't change it..my decision might sound stupid.. dumb.. or whatever you want to call it..but this is something i just have to do..i have to try..even if i fail the first time..i will keep on trying..

sorry for the untidy post...
oh well...*sigh*

A Friend Once Told Me This Story..

The story begins:

My friend told me this story not so long ago..
Young and not-knowing as he is....

For knowing him so long..I never really understood him..
Rarely do I talk to him like a good friend..but now I know him better..
It all started when he was little..he went to a protestant primary school..
Everyday he read a little bit of the Bible @ school..he didn't understand one bit..
Now he is older..he has grown more wise..he starts to see things differently..
Duhh wisdom comes with age, right? But he was always different from the rest..
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So as he grew older, he starts to look for other religions..exploring them..

Therefore he read books, surfed on internet, asked around..
Researching all the different stories, tales, cultures..
Under the radar as he was..because he didn't want people to know..
Everytime his friends ask him what he is reading..he just says : nothing actually..

Name, u ask? No no no.. no name revealing until the end..so be patient..
And so he went to look for other religions..reading books, internet..u know..
More and more did he got fascinated about other religions..reading more
Everyday he learned a little from the religions but..which one should he follow?

Indeed, a difficult question for him..because he was interested in all of it..
So that had a big influence on him aswell..he kept on thinking about it..

And we all know some people are born with a certain religion..
Like muslims..we all know how that goes..muslim mom + muslim dad = muslim kid
Every religion has it's ways and guidelines..so my friend was confused by it all..
Xtremely confused and interested at the same time, was I...

He had to find an answer for his search..
Looking everywhere..he had read about Christianity, Buddhism, Islam and so on..

Till today he still has no final answer..but he did see something..
A Cycle in his life..he is seeing something coming back from the past..
Not just something..it was his Christian side coming back..he dreamed about it..
Going like what the *bleep* when he woke up..what was that light in the dream?

To be honest..at that moment.. I didn't know what to say..when he asked me..
Hope that when he knows it..he tells me..because the dream was freaky..
And so the story is more like this..His religious life started with Christianity..
Now it's returning to him? he told me it was The Lord that was in his dreams..
Kinda funny..how his life started with Christianity and it left..it came back..
So it's going like a cycle and this time he isn't going to let go, it has meaning now

For some reason I believe in his story..because he was very convincing..
Or was it just my imagination..i don't know..but it does makes sense somehow..
Round and round as a circle goes..Christianity made it's way back to him..

Right? or am I seeing things wrong?
Ever heard of Sy Rogers' talk about the 80 year-cycle..it's just like a circle..
And some of you might think..''what a weird comparison..''
Do you have proof of it, u ask? No, I don't have proof of his story..
In Him u need to believe, than u will know that the story can be true..
Never did he create such story for fun..i know it is real..
Good thing he told me, because i am always worried about him..and no i ain't gay

My friend's name is Marcus Seeker..
Young and not-knowing as he was..has become more clear..and more wise..

But still, he needs to learn a lot from everything..
Like a black hole, he absorbs everything he can learn from anyone..
On my mind..''this story of his religous cycle will remain..
Going like the cycle of a single drop of rain..''

Guess you have held on till the end..

Only those who believe will see it..

Don't ask for the story..be it..

In the end everything will become clear..

So let the time show you the answers of life..

Let no one tell you what you should do or believe..

Only the voice inside your heart can explain it all..

Visions and dreams can be messages sent from above..

Embrace the Lord and he will show you ''your story''..

THE END!

there was a hidden message in this story..

if you think that you have found it..

please sms or email it to me..

comments are allowed but DONT post the hidden message there..
personal reactions by MSN is fine aswell
cause i believe some people don't like other people reading their comments =)

Alright that's it for now..

Until next time my readers..

So many unanswered questions in our lives..

Within..

Read the following post on own risk..
It might change the way you look at me..



oh well whatever..



Everyone knows the saying that goes like this :

''If eyes could kill... ''

right? rriiigghhhttt?

Just friggin' imagine that it was possible..
Are you now thinking like ..
oohh how sweet would be =D ?
or...
i rather be blind then...

Well.. i am gonna have it be honest to my readers..
not that I have many readers but~! honesty last long..
at least I hope..

If I could kill with my eyes..I'd be quite a murderer..
I'd have killed at least over a hundred people..yes yes yes
that's right.. I said it.. over a hundred people..
because I get very quick irritated about things..
my blood boils on a low temperature..
there is not much needed to fire me up..
even though I never show this anger/hate within me..
I do sense it's there..and it's growing..

Now you might think that I am complete loco, esé
because of what I'm saying..
or you might think that I am fantasizing or something..
well don't worry..I am doing neither of it..
I know what it's going on in my mind
so I don't need people to tell me what to do...

When I need advice or help..I will ask for it..
If I want to tell you something..I will tell it..
So stop telling me what I need to do or what I shouldn't do..
If you know it better than me.. why don't step you into my shoes..
see how long you can walk in them..see the world through my eyes..
feel my emotions for a while..endure my pain for a while..

what? not so interested anymore.. fine..
I already knew that would happen..
You people just don't understand me..
Who will be the first to truly understand me..?


ps:
I have hate.. I have anger..
I have thoughts..I have emotions..

Weird huh...

It's weird, that 100 euro's sounds so much when you go to the Church..
but so little when you go shopping...

It's weird, how slow it feels to serve God for a hour..
but how fast 90 minutes go by when you watch a soccer match on TV..

It's weird, how long it feels be in the Church for 2 hours..
but so short when you watch a movie..

It's weird, that we don't know what to say in our prayers..
while we have so much to say to a friend..

It's weird, how excited we get when a soccer-match goes to Extra Time..
while we look on our watches if a Church-service takes longer than normal..

It's weird, how hard it is to read a whole chapter of the Holy Bible..
and reading a bestseller goes lightning fast..

It's weird, that we need weeks to plan something in our agenda for the Church
while other things can be planned last minute..

Shouldn't we all show more love towards our Lord?

God is Love..

Update..

There will be an update coming soon,
this time no kidding..
It will be a long long post.. so..
be ready to read a lot..
if you want to , of course..
well until then..

live long..and prosper..