Miserable

is the word that describes my current state..Today I didn't have mood to do anything..Seriously nothing..Zero-mood..Last night I couldn't sleep..From the moment I went to bed.. Till like 5 AM.. I was still awake and active.. Then i heard the builders working outside.. Pounding a pillar in to the ground.. Now I am definitely not going to sleep anymore..Sigh.. So I stood up and went to my desk and starting to watch a movie. After the movie.. I was still awake..And the sun was rising..Around 10.00 AM I finally was tired/sleepy enough to go sleep..Two hours later.. I woke up..Suprisingly.. I wasn't cranky or anything.. I felt really energetic. It was more like a power-nap. A very powerful nap, cause I am still awake.. And it's 11PM now already..

But as you can see, my post went from telling that I'm feeling MISERABLE to how I slept last night..Back to the Miserable part..As the day went by.. I started to feel more and more miserable..And I know why I felt that way..It's something that I just have to work with..Fight against this behavior of mine.. Really need to let go and stop holding myself back to certain things..