We Are Men

knock knock

C'est fini...

going to float away..from that person..

Strength..

does not come from physical capacity...
It comes from indominable will...

Our greatest glory doesnt lie in never falling...
but in rising every time we fall..

Started..

to see the way how people treat me..
i see some of them treat me ..

as a pillow
as a friend
as a brother
as an encyclopedy
as a fool
as a slave
as an idiot
as a family-member
as a teammate
as a soulmate
as a twin
as an enemy
as an ally
as a boxingbag
and many more...

What..

do we do.. when we realize that everything in front of us.. is all fake or
isn't the thing that we are looking for?

What can we do about it?

Weed-smoking-student-philosofy

WSS : i thought if i study ''high''
and take test ''high''.. get high scores =D

ps: no i don't smoke

Unleashing The Hate Inside...

Deep down inside of me..there lies a dark cave..
a cave so dark... that even I don't want to go in it..
Some of you readers might start to think..
''this fella right here has some serious mental issues''
well f*ck you if u think that.. never heard of metaphorically speaking?
oh, u didn't? well jump in front of a train or off a bridge =)
and have a nice day..

Well let's continue with the matter at hand..
Quite a while ago.. i noticed something..
I get angry and sad very easily..
but I dont show it.. and when there is no one around..
All the piled up emotions take over my mind..
Somehow I can't manage to control them from time to time..
Since I was a little child, I had these explosion of anger..
a lot of people called me Demon Child..
my parents didnt like that at all..
''Not one bit'' My mother would also scold those people.. haha
As i think back how my parents took care of me all these years..
made my eyes go teary while i typ all these words..
21 years..they kept me under their roof..
fed me, taught me, raised me, scolded me, etc. etc.
and it's all because my parents love me deeply..
eventhough they don't show it.. i know it.. =)

But i dont want to change the subject...
So as i was saying..
my emotions can swing from the left to the right anytime..
Explosions and implosions of emotions...
My mood can be influenced by the smallest things..
like a simple question..a question like
'' how are you/lee diem ar/alles goed? ''
can make me go crazy..why?
because i just hate that f*ck!ng question...i mean..
its okay if u ask me how
i am doing if u haven't spoken to me for like 2 weeks or longer...
but if u just had a phone call with me 5 minutes ago..
dont come to me on msn and ask me how i am doing...cause i will give u the most weird
and conversation-ending answers..

That was just a little example of the things i hate..
there will be more coming now.. if u feel like i am talking about you..
than maybe i am.. but then.. maybe i am not...

If you are afraid to hear about what i hate you..
than i suggest you stop reading now..from now it's on your own risk..
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So your curious mind brought you here..well lets start with that..i cant stand it if people are over-curious...when people ask me too many things..my mind will start to act like a balloon, the more u put in it.. the sooner it explodes..and we don't want that to happen.. because it will shock myself.. you and the people around you..I mean if I think you should know certain things than i will tell it..Dont force me to tell you things..or ask again & again.. It's really troublesome..If people are going to start asking things about this.. I will not answer them..If you feel insulted or offended by this...then i am sorry, just telling whats on my mind..and i warned you all before reading.. its ur own choice that you've read it..you chose it yourself.. dont blame me or anyone else..

Next thing i want to complain about it.. People that like to play ''Betweters''..They can always find a way to irritate me..''irritated much?'' u ask? YES YES YES very much~! Ooh i found the translation or description for ''Betweters'' it's ''Know-It-Alls'' or ''Smarty-Pants''.. u know.. people that want to act like they know it all better than other people.. always giving their opinion or their advice..while it's clearly bad advice or the opinion is totally worthless..There was this once.. i really had to hold myself back..otherwise things would've been escalated..and who knows..what might've happend that day.. kekeke some people will know what i am talking about..and if you don't know the details.. ''GOOD FOR YOU.. HAHA'' unlucky you hohoho

LALALALA NEXT in line.. is... ooooooh... this one is quite a subject nowadays..People that only see you when they need you or goodlooking or because of your acquaintances.. oh yes yes they exist..you know what I call them? MOSQUITOS..when they don't need you..they are nowhere to be found.. and when they need you.. they are everywhere...and when they come to you.. you always feel irritated..even before they open their mouths.. hahaha but it's always funny to act nice to them while u dont mean it..we all know the smile-and-look-away-and-roll-your-eyes thing.. hahaha and if you don't know what i mean.. than.. you're quite lost if you ask me hahaha..Shallow people.. u gotta smack them with one of those electric bug-killers.. and fry them please.. extra crispy.. no sauce needed =)

*yaaaaaawn* It's that time already.. i really really really hate people that overestimate themselves and don't know their place..respect the superiors and if you want to become the superior one.. i suggest you start doing the right thing.. if you keep on acting like that..i will just hate it more.. the more i hate that.. the more i want to stomp you in to the ground..like i always did when i felt like it..
and you might say : why dont you just respect me?
well here is my answer : i don't bow to those who can't play the game..and I think we all now know what kind of game we are talking about.. Yes bingo~! Yahtzee~! etcetera...B.A.S.K.E.T.B.A.L.L. I am not saying that I am a pro or anything but I just can't stand people who know less than me and act like they can take on everyone.. Sooner or later they will bite the dust..and when that happens.. I will rise above them.. who is bowing to who now?

Oh my oh my... look at the person over there.. looking so smooth..well you know what..f*ck that person.. yes indeed.. u heard me..yeah i said it..i said f*ck~! so what? anyways.. the next one is about people who think they are so hot and goodlooking..walking down the street thinking they can get any man/woman they want..well good luck with that..keep on walking with that thought in your head..and when you see a wall.. Sprint to it.. and smash your head against the wall..I hope you die instantly..otherwise you will become a retard.. oh..wait you already are.. f*ck!ng shallow people..*sigh* You are just the same as people who are just sitting on their asses and waiting for something good to happen to them... well thats not going to happen..When you want something.. you gotta go and work for it.. like someone told me : standing still is the same as going backwards..

well i am tired of typing now.. when i feel like it.. i will continue to complain more about people..
Feel free to complain about me.. i know i am not perfect so bring it on...and i also know that i am classified like one or more that i described before..

But before you complain about me.. answer these questions...
1.Why were you so curious and read all of it?
2.Are you going to complain about me?
-If so, you want to become like me?
-If not, why are you holding back?
3.Did you feel spoken to by one of the complaints above?
-if so, which one and how do you feel now?
if not, do you think there will one soon about you in the future?

OKAY that's right.. i stop for today.. maybe soon more..
maybe gonna be silent for awhile..
I will see when i feel like to complain again..

the 11th month...

The Eleventh Month of 2009 has arrived..
without even knocking..It just came rushing through my door..
making me realize that time is really flying by..
I got to stop being the way I was..
always holding back..
always taking sh!t..
always walking away from problems..
always accepting the wrongs of someone else..
always accepting getting blamed for something I didnt do..
always keeping my opinion for myself
and a lot more...

It's about time to break free and work for everything I want..
There is finally some movement in it =)

Preview?!

There will be a new post soon.. about something or maybe a lot of things..
Want to let the world know how I think about things..
What I like.. and what I hate..
There will be bad language..or maybe not.. depends on my mood
when i am typing the post..